What If ?

It's actually pretty amazing when you love life. It's something you look forward to and suddenly who you are and whoyour friends are doesn't really matter. It's what you do that makes the time special.

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I'm the kind of person that never lets anyone get the best of me. I've learned to build bridges instead of building those walls that are inevitably torn down. I enjoy giving people the benefit of the doubt. But when some people take advantage of it, that is when second chances are risky. I never know if it'll actually be worth it. And when the second chances don't work, I'm sure as hell not giving out a third or fourth try.

But sometimes I wonder, what if? What if things could be different? What if they change? What if they don't? What if the chance is wasted?

I hate questioning my actions, but if I don't than no one else is going to do it for me.

There are times when I get just soo scared. I don't want the fact of being scared to mess up any good opportunities. Although I am well aware of this, I let it happen anyways. I stutter my words. My actions are clearly weak. I'm hesitant on my next move. And my state of mind is blank. Than later I'm mad at myself for letting the moments slip away as they do.

Maybe this is the time for me to keep branching out and seriously take the risk. I'm tired of being scared and tired of having it as an excuse to not do what I do.

Take the risk, make the move.

-Lisa

PS.
Vinh is a homofaggetdoucheface whom I love.