My First Love

I was asked to write a personal narrative in my english class. I wrote this a couple of months ago and thought I would share it.. My teacher said to write about event that changed your life. I couldn't think of anything better than sharing this;
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As I stood there watching him walk away I thought to myself, “I didn’t just loose him as my boyfriend, I lost him as a best friend too.” Relationships need time, trust and the ability to set aside your own feelings for someone else. He taught me just that. The three years of building up a friendship and six months of naive bliss was all our hearts could take. But we had days I will surely never want to or try to forget about. He was my first love lost.

It all started with a quick glance here and there. Next thing I knew we were on our first date at the ever so ordinary movies. It was a Friday night when we decided to meet at the Everett Theater to watch the thriller “When a Stranger Calls”. After buying our ticket, walking into the theater the smell of butter popcorn hit us. Entering the theater the fell of sticky floors as we walked hand in hand, choosing a seat right in the middle. Being so shy and fumbling on words because neither of us wanted to say the wrong things. Catching a late night movie just made sense. What more would you have wanted at that fragile age of 14?

Days turned to weeks, weeks turned into months. We became the couple that everyone envied at our age. So many people had doubted us but we proved them wrong showing that you can set aside your pride, even when you are young and aren’t quite sure of what love is. When he felt pain, it was as if I felt it too. We were there for each other through so much.

There had been times when I been struggling with my own issues with family or friends and I was able to turn to him to talk about it all. He had been so sympathetic and took the time to just listen to me. It wasn’t just that it was also all of the little things that he did for me that made me fall in love with him throughout the relationship. The night of our first date it had been raining and I was getting really cold walking outside. He had been nice enough to offer me his jacket even though that meant he would be cold. It was those little things that mattered the most.

Months soon went by and somehow we went from being crazy about each other to barely speaking. It hurt to think that the person you’ve cared about so much could stop caring about you. Near the end of our relationship it took me awhile to realize that we had drifted and there was nothing more I could do. The question kept going through my mind over and over again. If you love him, just let him go and let him do his own thing for awhile, you need to do your own too. You’re making the right choice, aren’t you?

We haven’t really talked since that day. We said we’d be friends again but I’m not sure if that will happen. He needs his space and time so I’m giving that to him, no matter how long that will take to be his friend. It sounds selfish, but I still do want him to be a part of my life even if it means we only speak every so often.

I’m a stronger person because of him and I thank him for that. He taught me of love, pain, and how to cherish time. Maybe it wasn’t the perfect relationship; in my heart it was just right. Sometimes it does hurt to care about someone. Sure, you can say I am young and I don’t know what I’m talking about but I know what I felt was real. I will never hesitate to say that he's my first love and I will always love him.

-Lisa

Hate this Feeling, Hate Him

I hate how he can bring the worst out of me. I hate how I feel defeated each time I think about it. I hate how he gets to me. Worst of all, I hate that he cares. He doesn't have to, but he does anyways. Thats what I hate.

To know that I'm on his mind for that second he decides to pick up the phone. I love the way he gets the best of both. I always lose, each and every time.

I always let him back into my life. I can't even begin to start and count the numerous times that he has decided to walk out and come back again. The 6th time? I always say "I'm done." But I really need to stop lying to myself.

I hate that deep down, I don't hate him at all. Not one bit.

-Lisa

Heart to Heart w/ my Mom <3

I’ve had my fair share of broken heartedness. Who’s to tell you that the person you meet today will be the one that you spend the rest of your life with? I’m only 16. But why does it feel as if it’s such an urgency to dive into a relationship so young? Its movies, romance novels, and the love you see around you. Those are a few possibilities.

My decision on all this is to wait, with help from my Mom..

I honestly now can say that I don’t get the point anymore. Sure, you love the chase. The pure infatuation. But than what? I’m sure you don’t plan on marrying that person. Am I right? It’ll just be another memory to look back upon. It can hurt to think about it or smile, depending on the kind of person you are. To look at either the good side or bad side.

Let me share a conversation that I’ve had with my mom just recently about love. I never really knew this about my Mom before, but she is a pure hopeless romantic. My Mom and I have really deep conversations, I wouldn't trade them for the world. We talked about how her and my Dad gotten together and how much work it took for them to get to the point of love that they are now. I can't really explain it, but let me just say that the way they look at each other is as if they're seeing each other for the very first time..

The advice she gave me is to wait because she doesn't want to see me get hurt. And how she just wants to me to be happy with myself than trying to make someone else happy. I never really talked to her about my past relationships, but its as if she already knows.

I'm not going to lie, I'm still hurting to this day. Time heals all wounds. Right? Slowly, time will heal. I love my Mother dearling. And I'm so glad she is helping me through with every step of the way to feeling whole again.

-Lisa

Spring Break/Family Matters

FINALLY! I'm soo done with doing all my schoolwork 'till the last minute because right now I'm just going to be relaxing.. well sort off. I got a lot of family things to attend to. It's crazy. But I love every moment I get to spend with them :) I remember when it used to just be Linda, Eric, Somanea, and myself that got into all those little adventures. Now, I'm surrounded by all these little kids, wondering..was I this annoying? Eh, its all good. I wouldn't want it any other way.

Next Saturday we're going to have a memorial for my Grandpa at my aunts place. It's been around 5 years since his death. Things get gloomy during this time, but my whole family gets together. I love how strong our bond is. I know its mostly because we don't want to have our Grandma see us weak. I still remember the day it happened;

I was only 10 but there I was, holding my Grandma's hands making sure she was okay. I was always told, don't cry in front of her. And that's exactly what I did. I had to stay strong for my sister and cousins as well. They were all too young to understand and it was hard to explain. I had a different bond with my Grandmpa than my cousins. Since I was the oldest and the first grandchild. . I still can't believe it, 5 years. Still doesn't feel like it. We're still feeling the impact to this day. Because I remember, that day almost everything changed. My Grandpa not being there to babysit my sister and I. Not taking me to school every morning. Not taking my cousins and I to McDonalds especially since we weren't really allowed to have it. Not being there to see my first choir concert in middle school. He was the one that believed in me. I still miss him very much today. I understand he's in a better place. And I'll never forget how much he was there. He was truely the greatest Grandpa. I'll always cherish those little things he did. I love you Grandpa. And this Saturday we're honoring you. <3

-Lisa

Inhale, Exhale.

Did you know inhaling for 5 seconds and letting it go for 5 seconds will actually help you calm down over being stressed out? Yeah, I didn't know that either until I read it in my Cosmopolitan the other day. (That was just a interesting tid-bit I thought I'd share.)
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I'm done.
Turned in my leadership forms, go my teachers to sign everything. Did the interview in about 5 minutes during my lunch time. No more stressing.. at least for now. I've seriously been feeling so fatigued/tired in the last couple of days, sometimes I just feel like passing out. Okay, I might be over exaggerating but still. I think I might need to take more power naps or something because this is no good, no good at all.

But lately I've been pretty on top with doing all of my homework and getting things done on the deadline. I need to keep this way. But seriously, all I'm looking forward to is spring break :) Time to relax with my besties nad just chill out. Hopefully the weather will allow for this. Erg, its only Tuesday. I can't stand it. I don't really have much to look forward to doing this week because my schedule is confusing the crap out of me. Things keep canceling, adding. Blah! >:(

I really think time needs to go by faster (for only this week). Now as for the rest of my life..lets just slow down a bit. Please? I don't think I can handle anymore mis-used time and lost moments.

-Lisa

Today to Tomorrow to the Future

I feel so stressed out right now. It's insane. I feel so confused and I feel as if time is going by too fast that I have no idea where it's going. Things that I thought I wanted to do, changed within a week? I don't really even know when.

I went to talk to my counselor today. And oh boy, did I have a lot of questions. I didn't even realize it. But he let me know that there's not much for me to worry about and I'm as on track for graduation than anyone else. I'm going to be taking leadership now which means no running start =/ but I have college credits already so no worries there. I'm using dance as a pe credit which opens up my senior year more :) But that means I'm going to have to take both of my art credits than but its all good. I asked him about doing summer school and he told me to not to worry about 'till taking it next year. No summer school this year. Yesss.

One of my teachers that I asked to do a recommendation for me thought I was taking things too far. I was like are you kidding me?! I'm just getting started. It's actually pretty funny. He has no idea how hard I try to juggle this all. Maybe I'm just good at hiding it. Seriously, people have no idea how much I have my plate 'till they ask. Take one step in my shoe and you'll trip on the first step.

I'm really hoping this week goes by smooth because as of right now, I'm one wrong statement or move will just push me off the edge and I'm hanging on it now. Spring break is next week, and thats all I'm looking forward to because after its downhill with the WASL, classes, and quarter grades are going out.

I'm done for now. I really need to finish my homework and get some studying in.

-Lisa

Easter Weekend :)

I hope everyone's having a blast, spending time with your families and go Easter egg-hunting! Haha. I remember when I was 7 my aunts would have us paint eggs, put candy into the eggs. Than they would hide them in the backyard and we'd go find them. I don't where the time has gone. But instead of finding them now I help to hide them! It's crazyy. Now there's so many baby cousins around. I just don't know. It makes me feel old but at the same time, I feel like I havn't wasted any of my time at all.

Today I helped with the Easter Hunt at Cascade. Omg, the Dance Team's booth was a hit. We did a candy walk where the kids walked around in a circle while music was playing and when we stopped it they would land on a square. Than we'd draw a number and who ever was standing on the number square we called would get candy. We played songs from High School Musical 1 and 2. They kids were supeeer adorable.

Right now, I'm waiting to go to my aunt's house :) I miss my cousins even though its been like a week since I've last seen them.

Sadie Hawkin's is tonight. My sister's going. But I'd rather not. I'm kinda over going to dances. But the theme this year is soo cute. It's Beauty and the Geek. *Sigh. I'll just wait 'till my geek comes along. Haha. J/k.

I hope everyone has a good weekend! (:

-Lisa

Yes, I'm OK.

The phrase I say almost every single day. I'm ok. I think its nice that people are wondering how I'm doing and are spending the time to ask me, but sometimes it just gets to the point when it gets annoying and I just want to be left alone. I'm tired of hearing, "Lisa, Are you ok?" "Anything wrong" And once I reply with that tedious statement, they than say "Are you sure?" If I wasn't sure, would I be saying it?! But than again I tend to contradict myself.. a lot. What I think is very odd is even when people that I barely even know ask me. I guess strangers see though even the fakest smiles and put ons. I wonder how easy mine is to read.

-Lisa

Job Hunting

I hate it >.<" Especially since I'm very limited to where I'm allowed to be working at. I'm confident that I'll hopefully get one of the jobs I'm applying for. Right now I'm applying at Icings and Pacsun. Than this weeked I'm going to Central Market in Mill Creek because they're looking for courtesy clerks. 2 openings! Finally. I'm going to go this weekend with my aunt because she used to work there and everyone who is currently working there likes her. So I'm a win with that. But if not, I'll be satisfied with the other two. I have to get a work permit from my counselor though. Erg, I have soo much stuff to do.

I'm not even sure if I'm going to take running start now. But I'm for sure taking summer school because now I got a form to do Adv. Leadership because one of my teachers recommended me. This is great (sarcasm) because its a year long class and I barely have room in my schedule.

There's soo much to do in such little time.

-Lisa

Is this good enough?

I don't know know what else to say or what else to do to make them see how hard I'm trying, but it doesn't even matter ..

-Lisa

Dose of Love

Intimacy refers to close connected and bonded feelings in a lovingrelationship. It includes feelings that create the experience of warmth inloving relationship, such as experiencing happiness with the loved one,sharing one's self and one's possessions with the loved one and givingemotional support to the loved one, receiving and giving emotional support tothe loved on and having intimate communication with the loved one. Passion refers to the feelings that lead romance, physical attraction, sexual consummation, and the like in a loving relationship. Commitment is the component of love. Short term commitment is the decision that one loves someone. The long term aspect is the commitment to maintain that love.
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I believe in the power of love. I believe that love really is the ultimate human accomplishment, the highest level of success that we can achieve in thislife. I believe that while it's possible and for most of us, unavoidable, tofall in and out of love with multiple people in your lifetime, it really onlycomes down to that one person who you unquestionably loved the most. I believe that even if circumstances lead you astray from that person, even if you havea good life, a happy life, with someone else, that doesn't mean you don'tcontinue loving that one true soulmate more than you ever loved anyone, and ever will. I believe that there is truly that one person out there for eachone of us, and alot of the time we don't end up with that person for whatever complicated reasons, but we settle for the person we may love almost asmuch, a person who it works out logically and conveniently to be with. I believe even as I write this that while I may join the ranks of all of us who don't end up with our true soulmates, that I take comfort in the fact that at least I know who mine is, and at least I spent a few years of my life with him. I believe that if right now you're questioning whether the last person you loved or the person you love right now is that soulmate, that they are not. I believe that it doesn't neccesarily take a trial and error basis, falling in love multiple times and comparing all of those relationships, toknow which one of those people you've loved is the one I speak of. I believe that when you meet that person, whether it's your first love or your last, you will know. And finally, I believe that while I don't know what the future holds for us, I know that I can finally let him go now and let myself go on as well in return. Because you can't force things to work out, even with that one true soulmate. Sometimes life puts us on completely different paths that justcan never be anything but parallel, and it doesn't make sense, and it's not fair, but you have no choice but to keep moving forward.

-Lisa

DECA Takes Over Safeway

I was very much surprised with how well it all turned out. Even though some of the schedules got screwed up. Which my bad for mixing up with the names >.< I originally thought that we wouldn't be able to fill every single station but I was completly wrong. We ended up having to find spots to put people in! It really did look like we were taking over because so many members had showed up.

Ashley & I were able to work in the Bakery, Produce, & Floral for the first half of the day we were there. It was mucho fun. It was hilarious when the Produce guy, Cliff had asked us how old we thought he was. Serena and Cassie told us to say 25 so we did (: But than Ashley said he was 22. Shoot, she was his favorite. Haha. It's all good. We tried some ugli fruit. It was gooooo. Than for the second half we got to just do the announcements for the cake walk and than just see what everyone was doing. But mostly chilled.

Overall, it was a really good experience. I hope we get to do it again next year because everyone there was so nice. We were able to to make $81 from selling the root beer floats. That basicly paid for the whole event, saving money from our DECA funds.

What really made my day, was when he showed up. I told him to come but I really didn't think he was going to because he was having practice with his band. Plus I was stuck behind the floral department having to do announcements I didn't think he would find me, or that I could find him.. but than I turn around to see him standing there. He even brought his band members. When I went over to say hi, I don't know even know why I always get these little butterflies in my stomach but I do. I just love the way he looks at me, and the way he talks to me (Cause you know how sometimes you can tell when someone talks to you differently than someone else. He talks to me differenlty in that really adorable wayy), and I absolutly live for his embrace, its like I never want to let go..

-Lisa

WASL Week/Busy-ness

I'm soo glad that this week is over. Although I didn't have to take the WASL, I was happy to sleep in and get the late schedule. But now I feel like I'm lagging big time. Which is REALLY not good. I've realized in the next month is my most busiest. Just when I thought I'd finally catch a break from it all. Here's a piece of what's coming up next.

-Safeway Take-Over, which is tomorrow.
-Dance Meetings/Practices are starting soon/Uniform fittings
-Taking gymnastic classes.
-More DECA planning for the next upcoming events such as the Easter Hunt/Fashion Show/ETC.
-Running Start Test
-Math/Science WASL
-SAT's ? (Still deciding on it)
-Driver's Licence Test
-Doctor Appointments

And that's not even the half of it all. I hate looking at my planner because it's telling me how much I have to do in such little time. I love keeping myself busy, but I think this time I might have taken it too far. I'm going to keep perserving, keep my head up. If I don't do this for myself, HECK! No one else will.

It's funny, because I used to remember my parents telling me that I needed to get more involved and now they think I'm spending too much time trying to get ahead. We went to pho' today and I was planning my next week schedule, my parents faces were priceless when they saw that I actually did plan things out and saw how many things I did have going on. I truely feel blessed to have my parents be, well MY parents. They're so supportive and give me great feedback when I tell them what I want to major in college. I'm pretty sad when I think about how little time I spend with them. But I do cherish each time we get just some family time. (:

-Lisa

Letting It All Go

You're probably thinking I've forgotten all about you by now, but thats far from it. I have missed you every waking day and my heart still hurts, but I'm getting better. I continue to smile and still go on without you. I know I have missed you, but it takes almost everything in me to just keep it all inside. I still wonder about your doings, how you are, what you're doing, and what we used to talk about, to the laugh in your voice. Just, everything. I miss it all. However, I feel that leaving was for the best because everything happens for a reason. Should destiny put us into crossing roads in the future, that is when I will see you again. Until then, remember this ; I took the risk and gave you my all. Never, ever, did I give up on us. You were the one that let go, so now I'm going to do the same.

-Lisa

DECA State Conference 3/6-3/8

The most amazing experience of my life. I'm not even joking. I spent those 2 1/2 days figuring myself out while figuring out exactly what I'd like do in the future. It was all really hectic and the schedules were mucho confusing. I'm so glad I had Richard to help me find my way in the first night or I would've been completly lost on all those busses. I'm so jelous of the people who got to stay at the Hyatt for their events. But oh well.

I had done my community service presentation. I didn't place but my scores weren't that bad. For my presentation I scored a 48/60. And in my writtin I got a 36/40. I'm kinda dissappointed because I knew I could've done better but I just stressed way too much. I'm pretty satisfied with my score and the feedback I had gotten.

On the plus side I still get to go to Georgia but I'm not competing. Instead I'm going to be attending the Leadership Academy to train to run to be the President for my Area. Which is Area #1. I'm excited for that but extremely nervous. I'm already President for my chapter right now and I'm going to run again in April for next years. I'm already looking at what project I'll be doing for next year's competition!

Besides all that, I had so much fun with the girls in the hotel. I was soo happy that I got to share a room with Ashley! Hanging out in the halls blasting up the music and dancing with Ashley, Amita, Oliva and Chelsea. Making that boy across the hall feel embarrased. Ahem.. :) Spending 3 hours getting ready just for dinner. Not even to mention all those inside jokes. I loved it all.

"What the pho?"
"Did you fall?!"
"Where are my pants??"
"I like buildings..wait look at the mountains!"
"Its paper, duh!"
"Thank You, Reggie"

That's not even all of it. I can't wait for all of the other DECA activites that we still have planned this year. Safeway, Easter Festival, DECA Day at Safeco Field, Senior/Staff basketball game. Next year will be even more insane. I can't wait.

The most important realization I've had is through out all of this, not for one moment did I feel that I needed someone to hold my hand. I didn't need to pick up my phone to call/txt anyone about what was going on. I didn't feel that need, not even once. And boy, did it feel good. I havn't feel that in such a long time. I guess it just took a trip away to prove how strong I can be, on ,my own. Now thats impowering. Yes, I'm talking to someone. But who know's how long it will last. I know I'm backin in and not taking the risk, but I don't want this to screw up. But I like how he gave me my indepence. That's probably why I felt so good and finally feeling as though I got it together. I feel like me. The old me. I like this.

-Lisa

Ever Thought About This?

She's the one you call when you're bored because she makes you laugh. She's the one you talk to when you're feeling down because she's willing to lend an ear and be a friend. She's not the one you call when you need a date to your the New Year's party, or to go dancing with on a Saturday night. She's the one you spend time with between girlfriends, before you find "The One." You know, the one who you keep around in the meantime. She's not one of the guys, not a tomboy, but you don't look at her as a "real" woman, either. She's not bitchy enough, or moody enough to be seen in that light. She's too laid-back, too easily amused by the same things your male buddies are amused by. She's too understanding, too comfortable; she doesn't make you feel nervous or excited the way a "real" woman does. But she's cool, and nice, and funny, and attractive enough that when you're lonely and need female companionship, she'll do just fine. You don't have to try your hardest to impress her because she knows the real you already, and you don't have any facades to keep up, no pretenses to preserve. You're not trying to get anything of substance out of her, she's not easy, but you know that she cares about you and is attracted to you, and that she'll give you the friend you need. And you know you don't have to explain yourself or the situation, that she'll be able to cope with the fact that this isn't the beginning of a relationship or that there's any possibility that you have any real romantic feelings for her. It won't bother her that you'll go on a date with the girl you've been mooning over for weeks who finally agreed to go out with you. She'll settle for a goodbye hug and a promise to call her and tell her how the date went. She's just so cool. But deep down, if you really think about it (which you probably don't because to you, the situation between the two of you isn't important enough to merit any real thought), you know that it's really not fair. You know that although she would never say it, it hurts her to know that despite all her good points and all the fun you two have, you don't think she's good enough to spend any real time with. Sure, it's mostly her fault, because she doesn't have to give in to your needs. She could play the hard-to-get person like the rest of them do, if she really wanted to. But you and she both know that she probably couldn't pull it off. Maybe she's too short, not pretty enough for standards, or works at McDonalds. Whatever the reason, somehow life has given her a lot of really great qualities but has left out the ones that men want (or think they want) in a girl. So she remains forever the funny friend, the steadfast companion, and you go on searching for the hottest girl around who will somehow be everything you ever wanted in a girl. You'll joke to her that she should be the best man at your wedding, and she'll laugh and make a joke about a smelly rental tux. She doesn't captivate you with her beauty, or open doors with her smile. Mainly she blends in with the crowd. She's safe. She doesn't want to be the center of attention and turn the heads of everyone in the room, but she wants to turn someone's head. She wants to be special to someone, too. We all do. She has feelings; she has a heart. In fact, she probably has a bigger and better heart than any girl you've ever known because she's had a front-row seat to The Mess That Is Your Life, and she likes you anyway. She obviously sees something worthwhile and redeeming in you because although you've given her nothing, absolutely no reason to still be around, she is. And someday, she won't be around.

Nothing More to Say

I've said it all and I don't know how else to express everything else that I'm feeling. Do I need to put it on a hugee sign and put it in front of your face? No, I wont. I shouldn't feel that I need to do that. I put my feelings out there. I let you know in the easiest way possible but now I'm just tired of feeling so obligated in this whole situation because honestly I'm done and through with it all.

-Lisa

Good Enough?

I always strive to do my best. But lately, I've been feeling as if everything I've been doing seems to be pointless. Like there's no meaning behind it.

I've been working on my project for State like crazy. And I honestly I'm starting to not even care how good/bad I'll do on it. Yes, it all looks good. Yes, my visual is almost completely good. And yes, I know how I'm going to present it worde by word. It seems like I'm doing this all to please other people though. Erg, I hate it when I start to feel this wayy.

And mostly importantly, Yes, my parents are proud. But its like, I don't even do anything for myself anymore. I'm doing it for them. I guess its a good thing that I'm learing to be driven. But being driven this way, just doesn't seem very productive, even though I'm getting so much done. Oh well, in the end it will be worthi it. I just need to keep telling myself that.

It's about time I'm satisfied with all that's being done.

-Lisa

It's OK.

It doesn't matter if you meant to do it or not because in the end it all hurts the same.
I've realized in the past couple of years I've let so many people walk all over me. Watch them take advantage of all the good that I'm capable of giving. All the love that I can give. Just watch them take it and not even care or think that in the end, I always find out the truth.

I hate how people put on their little acts and think thats its just fine. But its not. It never will be. I'm sorry but the world doesn't revolve around you or all the little actions/mistakes that you make. Take responsibitly for it and don't blame others. I actually feel sorry for people who do this because when they look back, they're just looking back at lies.

This is besides my point, for once I want to meet someone that is legit. Someone that will be worth my time and doesn't take advantage of me. I'm tired of wasting my time and I'm sick of going through guy after guy realizing it was all for the wrong. But than again I don't want to have to face regretting it all..like I had before.

-Lisa

Reminisce

Turn back time, where you used to sit 4 hours watching the Rugrats. Where you wouldn't ever leave your house without your nano baby, and when Blues Clues was actually challenging. Rewind back to the times when your favorite shows were Doug, Ren & Stimpy, Pinky and the Brain, and Rocko's Modern Life. When you watched re-runs of TGIF, Step by Step, Family Matters, Dinosaurs, and Boy Meets World. When you remember reading every series of Goosebumps, or in that case, remember listening to your mom read them as she grew bored and bored as you grew more excited as to what would happen next. When bringing plastic cartoon lunch boxes to school was pretty much cool, and saying "NOT" after every sentence was the way to talk. When every argument was settled by rock, paper, scissors, bubble gum bubble gum in a dish, or daddy had a donkey inky binky bonky. When cops and robbers was a daily activity, and when hide and go seek was put to pause only when it was snack time. The days when we used to actually obey our parents and when the radio was all we depended on for music. When you knew that Kimberly, the pink ranger, and Tommy, the green ranger, were meant to be together. When you always wanted to send in a tape to America's Funniest Home Videos, but never taped anything funny, so you gave up. When the Magic School Bus made you think that school buses could fly, and when yo-yos made you popular. When getting married meant buying your crush a Ring Pop, and blabbing some random words behind the dumpster. When reading that little paper in the fortune cookie meant everything to you because it predicted your life. The day when you could tell furbie all your little secrets and expect him to talk back, and when Beanie Babies were the talk of the class. When you got creeped out by "Are You Afraid of the Dark?", and when you knew the Macarena by heart. When you lied to your parents to bring you to McDonalds, because you were starving, when really you wanted to play in the play place. When gas was $0.95 a gallon, and Caller ID was a new thing, and when checking out drawing books and "Rainbow Fish" from the library was the cool thing to do. Before we realized all this would eventually disappear, we didn't bother to think of how good things were.
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I miss this all.

-Lisa