Growwing Up.

I never realized how naive I used to be about love. Being in love and being able to love someone are the two most difficult things to understand and do. I now realize that in my past I would use the word so often. Yeah, I love you. But I never really meant it. It just seemed like I would say it because that's what the other person wanted to hear.. yeah I know. Not a smart move. Hearts get more broken when you say things that you don't mean, even worse when you do.

As the days go by, and I start to be more mature and responsible with each and every choice that I begin to make.

Your actions have consequences and your life is the living proof..

-Lisa

Pain.

Because that's not what people want to hear.
They want to hear that it's going to be okay.
That the pain goes away, but it doesn't.
It never does..

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Pain is inevitable, we all know this. So why do we run away from it? It catches up to you and once it does, it's always at the worst time possible. Embrace the pain. How?, you may be asking. Take the pain, channel it through something good. Whether it be through dancing/singing/writing/a sport such as tennis or soccer/etc.

I've learned that running away is never the answer. The problem will always be there, so face it. Yeah, its hard but it beats wasting all of your time and energy from running away.

-Lisa

Enough ?

That's what I'm afraid of.
Not being enough.
Not good enough,
Not smart enough,
Not pretty enough.
-One Tree Hill

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Why set a limit to standards of being enough? Be who you think YOU should be and live to your own standards. .

-Lisa

Fast Pace.

Your biggest challenge isn't someone else. It's the ache in your lungs, the burning in your legs, and the voice inside you that says "can't". But you don't listen, you push harder. You hear the voice whisper "can" and you discover that the person you thought you were is no match for the one you really are.

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This week has gone by suppaaa fast. Its crazy, tomorrow's already Friday! I didn't really do much this week so its weird. Usually my most busiest are the ones that go by extremely slow. Oh wells, I love having things to do and when there's down time to do whatever than that's good too. I have to admit that I've been doing pretty good at not double-booking anything.

So I'm just going update on little bits of things, to vent out a little bit. Well to start off, school has been effing stressful. I hate the whole lettering grades. Especially in the classes where you don't really turn in assignments that often. So far I've got C's & F's. It's such a biiiitch. I hate having to explain to my parents about this cause they don't really understand. Than my whole extra-curriculum that I've got going on kinda makes it even more difficult to balance things out. But I do it anyways. I just really want them to see how hard I try but it just feels that everything is just slightly below average for them. I get upset about it but than I realize that there's not much that I can do but keep trying. I know that some people can empathize on what I mean.

But I really do like my classes this year. I don't if its just because it's junior year and so that means its the year to buckle down and get serious or what. I really feel as though I'm finally getting it together. (=

Oh yeah, & I have yet to update on how the dance team is going. So last Friday we had a performance at the Football. Now, I'm not one to get embarrassed that easily.. But that night had honestly felt like one of the most embarrassing moments of my life. Mainly because we couldn't hear the music yet again, and some of the girls forgot the dance and just froze. =/ I'm hoping since now that we have a month 'till our next performance that the girls REALLY step it up. So far the routine we're learning right now is fast, but I think it's going to get most of the girls to loosen up and just do it, and to not worry about looking "funny." And as for the people that have been talking badly of the girls, all I have to say is, Well do you have the guts to do what we do? Learn a whole dance routine that is roughly over 2 minutes long, plus formations in less than 2 weeks? And perform in front of over 300 people and prove them wrong. I'm honestly proud of our team because we work hard but we still have fun doing it.

Ahh, this blog is getting longer than I thought it was going to be. I'm kinda just rambling on now because I have no homework tonight! (YAY!) And I just feel like I need to just vent it out..

-Lisa

P.S. I miss my boyfriend <3
Missing someone gets easier every day,
because even though it's one day further
from the last time you saw each other;
it's one day closer to the next time you will.
-One Tree Hill

I just found that quote and it just reminded me of him, I get to see him tomorrow but still. It doesn't change the fact that I miss him mucho :(

I'm lamme xP

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Quick Blog

So I have an hour to finish all my homework and than I'm heading over to Cascade for the CarBash and Bonfire in which I hope to see a lot of people there! (= So I just thought that I'd blog for a bit cause it looks as though this weekend is going to be amazing. Why?, you may ask.

Hmm, well its already starting off good with tonight! Tomorrow will be the Homecoming Football game vs Snohomish. The Dance Team WILL be performing depsite what were told otherwise last week. I'm hoping that this performance will be better because 1. we will not be on the field. 2. we'll be on the side line so therefore we will be able to hear the music. 3. because of that we will be able to start on time! 4. the routine was hella easy to learn so I'm happy we had gotten it all down today at practice.

Than on Saturday Night I'm going to Homecoming with all my girls. So far I've heard that a lot of people are going in groups. So all I gottsa say is Ha Ha Ha to those who have dates. xp It's going to super fun.

Okay well this was pretty quick so now I really just gotta finish up my homework or else than I'm screwed -_-"

-Lisa

Time.

So these past few days have felt extremely long for some odd reason. I like taking days one at time but for some reason this week feels like torture. Especially since something has been going on each day, it makes it seem like there are 3 days combined into one. . I'm quickly running on l o w when I need to be on on high at this point.

I really want a get away and disappear for a little bit, just so I get the chance to get my act together. For some reason I have a short fuse and the smallest things are upsetting me. And you know how people say the way you act will effect other's day too? Well, I've been trying so hard to put a go to happy face but its getting hard. But I do it anyways.

I keep struggling with people asking me if I'm okay. I'm still not sure why that question bugs me so much. But it just does. Because sometimes I ask myself and than I realize that I can't even even answer myself. Ergggg.

Get it together, that's all I need to do.

-Lisa

DECA Camp/Homecoming Night - 10/4

Yupp, yupp. Busy day. I got up at 5:30am to get ready to go to Camp Killoqua for DECA camp. I must say that it was a successful trip for us. We had about 30 members that attended which I thought was great. It was a great opportunity to meet new people and bond. I was on the purple team and make the most illest rap! xP We played a lot of ice breakers like "baby if you love.." Where you would sit on some one's lap and try to get them to smile. It was pretty funny, I could not stop laughing. Later we had a competition in which we had to build the tallest-standing structure, my team won 3rd even though it totally fell over! Haha. Erg, but through-out all the madness I could not stop thinking about going to homecoming with my boyfriend later that night.

So I got home around 4ish, lucky me I got 2 hours and the help from my sister. I don't know what I would've done if she wasn't there to help me. So than 6'0clock hit and all I'm thinking is oh crap, am I done? Am I forgetting something. So than the boyfriend comes over and I told my parents about meeting him. He said he was nervous meeting them. Cute, right? My dad seemed kinda confused, same with my mom. But they don't really understand what homecoming is and I had already tried explaining it to them.

After we went to the boyfriend's house because his mom wanted to take pictures. I like taking pictures and all but I could not wait to leave because 1, we took pictures outside. 2, it was freezing! and 3. I was hungry. Haha. Than Taylor, Alexa, and Brett came and more pictures were taken! After all that we went to McHales in Lynnwood for dinner. It was yummy.

After being all full, we headed over to Alexa's house to get her i.d. because she forgot it and than we headed over to the dance. At first there wasn't that many people there so we went to get more pictures taken. After heading back up there were wayy more people. I thought it was so nice seeing the old Explorer people. Oh how I miss everyone but whenever there's an opportunity to see them, its great. There were so many people grouped around and omg, it was a pain dancing in heals so after a few songs I was like I'm taking them off! xp There were a few good songs. Some of them were iffy to dance to but we managed it anyways! (; Well the dance ended at 11:30 and it felt as though time flew by hella fast. Sounds cliche but when you're having the best time of your life with that special someone, the time does just go by.

After the dance was over I had to go back to my house to grab a pair of socks to go bowling! So I suck at it but it was still mucho fun. We bowled 'till 2 in the morning but I seriously was thinking where is all the time going! The boyfriend won the first time but I was determined to catch up and beat him but later in the night I didn't care anymore. All that mattered was just getting to be in his arms and kissing him through out the night. Once I got home, I was hella exhausted and just knocked out. Over all the night was amazing.

If I could spend forever in time, it would be with you.

-Lisa

October Already?!

Tell your family that you love them everyday, give your best friend the biggest hug in the world, & cherish every moment you share with your significant other, because you never know when it will be your last time experiencing it.

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Wow, I cannot believe that we're already in the second month of school right now. It seems as though time can be going by slow when in reality it's just passing us by . . we just don't know it because we're so preoccupied doing our own things. We don't take the time to cherish it all until moments like this when you're left thinking, "Where did all the time ago? The times when I could've done this or should've done that."

I've been soo effing busy, I seriously just don't know what to do sometimes. This week I've been getting the worst headaches ever because my mind is just racing about what to do. I hate feeling stressed out. But at least I'm trying to keep organized Key word is trying. So far I'm not doing a very good job at it because I'm lagging big time.

I'm kinda hoping that this month goes by quick just because there are so many things going on. For example, Homecoming this Saturday with the boyfriend, DECA Camp, than my school's homecoming week, which have I mention that I'm a candidate for Junior Class Princess? (It's not that exciting when there's about 50 other people on the list as well.), DECA Week, Volunteering @ Safeway for Breast Cancer Awareness, Movie Night, Halloween Funfest, & just so much more things that I don't really feel like naming off.

My goal is to make through the next week and maybe things will get set . .

Erg, I really need to blog more often. Too much happens and I start to feel overwhelmed. Plus blogging just is a good way to relief all of it.

-Lisa

P.S.
I told Ashley I'd blog about this, so today at lunch there was a crow flying around the cafeteria. It was pretty scary. I thought it was going to come and fly over to take my food. Gosh, I hate birds . . I wonder how they got the bird out though.. well I thought I'd just share that.