Another Saturday..

I don't want to be with somebody who would rather be with me than nobody. I want to be with somebody who would rather be with me than anybody.

Every night I stayed up, thinking my mind's made up. Every memory I hold on to. If I could only have a minute, I know how I'd spend it saying everything I feel for you.

And when I first met you, I never would have imagined I would have such strong feelings for you. I never would have thought that I would have dreams about you, or miss being by your side, or get butterflies in my stomach when someone mentions your name. When I first met you, I never would have thought that I would fall in love with you.

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Just some quotes that I felt close to the heart with and had me thinking of Matthew. I think it's been over a week since I've last seen him =/ "Absence makes the heart grow fonder"..? As for that quote applying to me; it just makes me miss him so much more..

But anyways today just felt like another day of being home, just kinda reminiscing on things. When I woke up this morning I just really didn't feel like getting out of bed and doing anything. Maybe it was just a bad morning. But I've just been getting way to many of those. It seems like lately I've been having to re-evaluate myself..and everything that I'm doing. But hey, I got to stare out my window at the snow that was slowly falling to the ground.. (which by the way my dad just told me to make a snowman outside in our backyard. It's frreeeezing out! No way!)

Goodness, I feel as though I'm in a slump and I need to get out of it. Quick! I hate feeling like this. I need to get my lazy butt out of bed and quit watching sappy movies all day. I'm going to try to make the best of this upcoming week. The foood drive is coming to and end and things just need to get done without no stress. HA! Let's see if that'll really happen.

It seems like all I ever do is stress out. Whatever happened to all the fun? Never having to worry? Planning crazy stuff without actually having to do them? Now it seems like everything you say and everything you do, has such a huge impact. Is this what it means to start growing up? If so, how can I slow it down?

I just have so many questions..and I know most of them will always be left un-answered but that doesn't mean I'll stop asking.

-Lisa