Wasted Energy,

You don't want to let people in.
It's hard for you.
& once you let those people in,
you don't want to let them go.
And when they screw up, it's like, why would you do that to me?
I gave you my feelings,
I did everything for you,
& you still screwed me over.
It's like you wished they were a better person.
-The hills

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I can't sleep, which really sucks because I know later in the day tomorrow I'm going to be complaining about how tired I am. Its just lately, my mind has been drifting and I find myself spacing out to problems I shouldn't even be thinking about.

I've always told myself to not waste my time and energy on such pity little things. How come it seems as though when I do put things aside they eat away at me even more?

Sure, talking things out help. But how come it seems as though I've lost..

ITS EITHER YOU GIVE IN, GIVE UP, OR GIVE IT YOUR ALL.

I had given in, I had refused to give up but it seems as though I have, I gave it everything I had. So am I just done. Can you even be in that state? I'm not mad.. maybe I'm bitter at the whole situation. A little upset? Sure. But never mad.

-Lisa