I Get So Weak

I'm tired emotionally, mentally, and physically. I seriously just cannot focus. And it's taking almost everything in me to do things that I normally wouldn't be so hard to do.

I'm still sick =/ Which just adds on to how I'm feeling. Last night I cried so hard. And over what ? I tv show. Lame. I know. I could just relate so much that it hit my heart. So everything just spilled over and thoughts kept rushing over.

I just think I've been keeping to myself too much lately. But I don't know what else to do. Everyone's busy, I don't want my problems to burden someone elses. Especially when it's not that big of a deal. I've picked up pieces on my own, I'm going to try to do it again. I can do it, Right ?

Worst thing ever is I miss him, I miss him more than ever. He can be sitting right next to me, but I miss him. I know its my fault. But he deserves so much better than what I can't give to him. As much as it hurts, I'd rather have him happy with someone else. Even if I'm not the one putting that smile on his face.

I admit I don't like myself right now, so how can I make someone else happy when I can't get myself to be happy? That's the thing, I can't. I need to learn to love myself first.

-Lisa