Unsure.

I don't know whether to cry because things are getting so overwhelming. Or smile because its a good thing everything is happening the way it is . .

My heart has been having this icky sinking feeling lately. Like something is going to happen and I should be keeping my guard up. Why is this? I have no clue. I don't like this feeling AT ALL, but I just can't shake it.

At this point in my life, I should be at my happiest. There's moment that I am, I see it, but only for that moment. Than I just get the feeling. I'm starting to think there's something wrong with my mindset.

Or it could just be that I'm used to having something bad happen when things get soo good. I know it sounds as if I'm not appreciative. But I honestly am. I've said this numerous times that I feel soo blessed with the life that I've been given. As for my circumstances that I've been place in, I'm not so blessed. It's a sign for growing and getting stronger. Well, I'm just going to leave it with these words :

"You can be up so high to a point, but when you get there . . what next? . . You can only go down."

-Lisa

(I apologize for being a bit pestimistic with this blog but I just really needed to vent out. It's been a long week.)